24 years old. Queer. Indiana/New York. BA in Gender Studies. Counseling student. Germanophile, writer, reader (see my books here), feminist, runner, writer, lover, nerd. More about me :) In recovery from an eating disorder & PTSD, living with depression. Trigger warnings always apply, please take gentle care. What's up, babycakes?
today: up. breakfast & shower. mall for interview outfit eep. home to drop off car. bus to campus. visit event put on by my potential employers to get a sense of what they are all about. quick lunch with David on campus (leftover soup + a bagel). bus home to do housework etc. shift from 5 - 7 pm. hang out with David. dinner (orange night aHAha). read more Screwtape Letters. bed early for running tomorrow!
today: weird morning, but now I’m up! receive INCREDIBLE late Valentine’s Day gift from Mom (Sound of Music 45th anniversary box set!!!). toast and tea. shower. nails. plan for moving type stuff. lunch with Skins. finish Mom’s also late Valentine’s Day gift. read. greet Mom. dinner. maybe movie with Mom. prayer journal. talk to David. sleep.
Want more Winter?
today: wake up after 9 - 10 hours of sleep, yum. shower. breakfast. mail absentee ballot! come to campus. emailing/editing personal statement. reading. texting with Ruth. lunch (omfg, artichoke cream cheese?! AMAZING). work on grad school apps! request transcript and GRE scores to be sent (WHAT am I DOing?). general writing/reading stuff. fax things to RAINN. back to apartment. dishes, tidying. dinner. evening things. bed.
Today: eaaaarly wake up…ugh. Throw on t-shirt and shorts. Walk L to school & say goodbye. Back to house : breakfast, shower. Pack stuff. Strip sheets. Lunch. Ride to airport. Buy magazine eep. Flight to NY. Hoooome. Shower, dinner, enjoy bed & bedroom. Skype with David. Bed.
today: weird wake up. feel and recognize the crushing sadness, but please get out of bed anyway. it’s already nearly ten am. :( shower. breakfast. clean room. read for internship. lunch. finish video trainings. clean bathroom. do nails. dinner. plan tomorrow. read for internship. bed early.
oh please do not let today get sucked into this depressiony spiral. pleasepleaseplease