today: up. look at beautiful, slivery, almost-new-moon. tea while introducing David to Eric Whitacre (lol). next: shower. breakfast. pack bag & dress. drive to internship. prep. supervision. lunch: read & post reply on website. intake (end early because they’re doing a FIRE DRILL. I understand the importance of fire drills but like. not the best thing. for therapy. anyway. client. client. CLIENT (don’t no-show on me, bro. or do. and I can go home early…). drive home. maybe see K? probs just: dinner at home. maybe watch some Once Upon A Time. homework. something nice. bed.

today: up. look at beautiful, slivery, almost-new-moon. tea while introducing David to Eric Whitacre (lol). next: shower. breakfast. pack bag & dress. drive to internship. prep. supervision. lunch: read & post reply on website. intake (end early because they’re doing a FIRE DRILL. I understand the importance of fire drills but like. not the best thing. for therapy. anyway. client. client. CLIENT (don’t no-show on me, bro. or do. and I can go home early…). drive home. maybe see K? probs just: dinner at home. maybe watch some Once Upon A Time. homework. something nice. bed.

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today: up laaaaate. breakfast, wait around to hear from Pastor J and then..fuck that. shower & get ready. errands, errands, errands. relax? (lol) in the evening, head into the city (le sigh) and go to Matt’s birthday party.

today: up laaaaate. breakfast, wait around to hear from Pastor J and then..fuck that. shower & get ready. errands, errands, errands. relax? (lol) in the evening, head into the city (le sigh) and go to Matt’s birthday party.

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today:
1. ceremony planning with David
2. the usual, like, uh, shower and whatnot
3. container store errands
4. target errands
5. visit tailors and ask if they can/will hem my dress? hopefully they say yes, so: stand on a box and have them pin it?
6. organize bridesmaid gifts
7. order more wedding stuff
8. nails for bridal shower
9. plans for friday
10. hopefully watch a movie and chill

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today: ugh up! journal! shower! breakfast! drop David off at school. drive to internship. supervision, lunch (during lunch try to write & post weekly response and also read in psych. doc. primer for tomorrow). intake, client, client, client. try to find time to staff intake?? drive home. dinner & prep MI presentation for tomorrow AHHH. maybe email Prof. G: chances I’ll have my lit review paper done by next Weds are “slim to maybe if I go crazy.” pack for NY or at least make packing list. bed.

today: ugh up! journal! shower! breakfast! drop David off at school. drive to internship. supervision, lunch (during lunch try to write & post weekly response and also read in psych. doc. primer for tomorrow). intake, client, client, client. try to find time to staff intake?? drive home. dinner & prep MI presentation for tomorrow AHHH. maybe email Prof. G: chances I’ll have my lit review paper done by next Weds are “slim to maybe if I go crazy.” pack for NY or at least make packing list. bed.

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today: up earlyish. journaling. yoga. work on emails regarding couples shower. shower. breakfast. quick haircut? check with Mom if I have an appointment in NY or just go get a trim wherever. HOMEWORK. lunch. HOMEWORK. therapy at 2. back here for HOMEWORK, HOMEWORK, HOMEWORK. dinner. think up a packing list. HOMEWORK. get stuff ready for tomorrow. bed.

today: up earlyish. journaling. yoga. work on emails regarding couples shower. shower. breakfast. quick haircut? check with Mom if I have an appointment in NY or just go get a trim wherever. HOMEWORK. lunch. HOMEWORK. therapy at 2. back here for HOMEWORK, HOMEWORK, HOMEWORK. dinner. think up a packing list. HOMEWORK. get stuff ready for tomorrow. bed.

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Fact: I did not get any schoolwork done today (so far), although I may manage to read a chapter or two in Inside Rehab between now and sleep
Fact: I had a wildly triggering day and struggled like cRaZy with my ED, grocery shopping, cooking, etc. but ate normal portions anyway
Fact: I drove David to a presentation* and then rushed home so I could bake brownies & do a bunch of the dishes^ as a surprise for him when I pick him up

* David volunteers with a student organization that puts on sexual violence education programming; it’s awesome; I used to oversee said organization as part of my former job; it was awkward!
^ There is a frying pan that I never wash because it is too heavy for my dinky wrists

almost a really good morning…and anorexia strikes again (but I will not let it ruin the day)

Woke up earlyish, listened to The Writer’s Almanac for today while cuddling in bed. Went to Clear Creek Trail and ran a few chilly miles. Came back all excited for breakfast and hun. gry. Started cooking with David: scrambled eggs with ricotta, hash browns, and a bit of bacon. I worked on eggs and he did the rest. And then disaster struck: he was cooking the bacon in the same small pan as the hash browns and some bacon grease oozed over and started touching/swallowing up/frying my hashbrowns and I freaked out like a stupid kid and ended up sobbing in my closet with stuffed animals.

Ugh. But we fixed it and now I am having distinctly separated eggs, hash browns, bacon, and an apple and some OJ. (God, I am hungry.) Sometimes I wonder if I should go back to using the separated plates I used during the early parts of recovery — I still have them! — but they are also made for little kids, so. 

Next up: a hopefully relaxing shower, gay-church-day (today is like…open and affirming Sunday? or something?), a tiny bit of shopping, and then HOMEWORK and cleaning and that sort of stuff.

today: uppp slowww urrrrgh. drive to internship. client. client. lunch. supervision. client. break to write notes. client. 2 solid hours of outreach. (omg aargh long day is long) drive to L’s. feed L’s husband dinner. eat dinner. homework or journaling. greet L and feed her dinner. bed ASAP. WAKE UP AGAIN. drive to internship. 2-3 hours’ staffing. BREAK TO WRITE NOTES, PRAISE THE LORD. lunch. client. client. group supervision. FINALLY drive home. *date night.*
p.s. I am so, so, so grumpy about Saturday class. I mean I always am, every time we have it, but at this point I know the professor is rude and annoying and confusing and no one understands him and ARGH.

today: uppp slowww urrrrgh. drive to internship. client. client. lunch. supervision. client. break to write notes. client. 2 solid hours of outreach. (omg aargh long day is long) drive to L’s. feed L’s husband dinner. eat dinner. homework or journaling. greet L and feed her dinner. bed ASAP. WAKE UP AGAIN. drive to internship. 2-3 hours’ staffing. BREAK TO WRITE NOTES, PRAISE THE LORD. lunch. client. client. group supervision. FINALLY drive home. *date night.*

p.s. I am so, so, so grumpy about Saturday class. I mean I always am, every time we have it, but at this point I know the professor is rude and annoying and confusing and no one understands him and ARGH.

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today: up (yuck!). breakfast/shower/dress/that sort of thing. drive to Indy. supervision. lunch. intake and three clients in a row. drive home. rest for a few minutes. spreadsheet stuff & work for Dr.T online. dinner, something fun, and bed.

today: up (yuck!). breakfast/shower/dress/that sort of thing. drive to Indy. supervision. lunch. intake and three clients in a row. drive home. rest for a few minutes. spreadsheet stuff & work for Dr.T online. dinner, something fun, and bed.

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today: up early. still feeling sick. send one email (nervous). reading for 10 am class/meeting (very, very nervous). next up: shower + breakfast, study for quiz. 10 am meeting (fuck, so nervous). home for some kind of lunch + more studying. 1 - 3:30: class. watch roleplay and then take quiz/test thing. home right away. so nervous. pack all things for next 2 days. email supervisor about dates I will be missing (holy shit so nervous, even though before I accepted this position I was upfront about dates I’d miss for the wedding). cry cry cry because being this nervous all the time and this scared is so awful and I’m so overwhelmed. dinner of some kind. bed. cry.
p.s. shit fuck goddamn I still have like 5 save-the-dates to mail and I keep forgetting top.p.s. I am a lousy friend

today: up early. still feeling sick. send one email (nervous). reading for 10 am class/meeting (very, very nervous). next up: shower + breakfast, study for quiz. 10 am meeting (fuck, so nervous). home for some kind of lunch + more studying. 1 - 3:30: class. watch roleplay and then take quiz/test thing. home right away. so nervous. pack all things for next 2 days. email supervisor about dates I will be missing (holy shit so nervous, even though before I accepted this position I was upfront about dates I’d miss for the wedding). cry cry cry because being this nervous all the time and this scared is so awful and I’m so overwhelmed. dinner of some kind. bed. cry.

p.s. shit fuck goddamn I still have like 5 save-the-dates to mail and I keep forgetting to
p.p.s. I am a lousy friend

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