give my daddy
24 years old. Queer. Indiana/New York. BA in Gender Studies. Counseling student. Germanophile, writer, reader (see my books here), feminist, runner, writer, lover, nerd. More about me :) In recovery from an eating disorder & PTSD, living with depression. Trigger warnings always apply, please take gentle care. What's up, babycakes?
Daughter finally stands up to her Dad.
I actually started crying from the cute.
This has gone on long enough! Ohhh my gosh so cute
on hold/getting shuttled around all because I’m trying to get people to stop mailing my (deceased) father things largely cause it is so upsetting for my mother
how many goddamn times have i done this
and how few of these times have the people I’ve spoken to been helpful or friendly
jesus, I am not trying to make your day harder
i am unfailingly polite
but stop sending my dead father mail. christ.
was a success (? I guess?). I engaged in lots of self-care. in addition to the planned self-care (btw the new pajamas are SNAIL PAJAMAS), I had my favorite kind of cookie (thank you David) and also got a new water bottle and little stuffed animal (thanks to a victoria’s secret deal) and made a collage of Daddy photos that I really like and did a bit of crafting. lots of family and friends posted nice things on a note I put on Facebook. my bestie was fantastic.
downside, not many people reached out to me and that kind of hurt for some (stupid) reason. I guess I’m at the point where to others I should be more “over it” or something…but no. I sobbed epically on my bed but that was probably a good thing (TM) and David rocked me and brought me stuffed animals.
I was surprised we were able to find the wind in the willows (the version I like and have on VHS), but we found it free on YouTube 0— click here for my ultimate self-care movie.
I skyped with my mom which was nice. the weather was lovely and I had a nice walk.
but oh gosh. I miss you, Daddy.
daddy did you know that i am going to graduate school?
and that I am moving to Indiana. moving in with my boyfriend. do you even know who he is? david. he’s great.
daddy i wish you were here please let me know that you know i just.
i can’t bear the thought of you not knowing my life anymore
oh come back