"EAT

When recovery is not all yoga mats
and tea and avocados, it is work.

It is listening to your body rather
than pretending not to hear her.

It is waking up so hungry, you are
nauseous, but swallowing breakfast

anyways. It is taking an hour to eat a
snack. It is your stomach throwing a

tantrum and telling the acidic voice
in your head she has the wrong address.

Trying to ignore the caloric calculator in my head is like trying to ignore television subtitles.

Every time you asked if I was full, I heard you say fat, and I’m trying, trying so hard not to do that.

This is teaching my body how to forgive.

This is teaching my brain how to apologize."

EAT, by Blythe Baird (via blythebrooklyn)

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Tumblr Recovery Warriors: A Question

My church is doing a curriculum called Just Eating regarding food from both a personal perspective (what do I put in my body?) and a political/community perspective (how do my food shopping choices affect others?). There is an adult group doing it (I’m in that) and the youth group is also doing it (basically 12 - 18 year olds). I am meeting, hopefully Friday, with the youth minister to discuss how to make it sensitive and safe for teens dealing with body image concerns, dieting, and eating disorders. I have my own personal opinions but I could use others — what makes a conversation about food and eating safe for those with these concerns? What else should I tell the youth minister?

This is my first post for the NEDA Week Photo Challenge. For those of you who don’t know, this week is National Eating Disorders Awareness Week. You can learn more at www.nationaleatingdisorders.org. (I interned at NEDA last year — they are wonderful people doing important work.) I am in recovery from anorexia type 2 and struggling a lot lately with body image and whatnot. So this week comes at a good time for me. Here I am with no makeup and no filter. This is what I look like, and I am done apologizing.

This is my first post for the NEDA Week Photo Challenge. For those of you who don’t know, this week is National Eating Disorders Awareness Week. You can learn more at www.nationaleatingdisorders.org. (I interned at NEDA last year — they are wonderful people doing important work.) I am in recovery from anorexia type 2 and struggling a lot lately with body image and whatnot. So this week comes at a good time for me. Here I am with no makeup and no filter. This is what I look like, and I am done apologizing.

thin-is-not-perfect:

fyoured:


Maybe you won’t, but the likelihood is that you will, at some point during your recovery, get Hungry. With a capital H. (Sure, people are different, but this was all-too-true for me, so I thought I’d share.)


This is so relevant… Especially the ‘meal plan’ thing… I didn’t know anyone else did that.

THIS IS SO TRUE. I was SO HUNGRY for SO LONG during recovery. LIKE SO HUNGRY. It was terrifying but I worked crazy insanely hard and I ate enough to satiate me. 
Only very recently (several years in) have I started to sometimes recognize the feeling of too-full and honor that as well. Now my eating is hugely variant (sometimes I need very significant amounts of food, sometimes I don’t. sometimes all I want is fast food, sometimes I want veggies and fruits). I am listening to my body and my eating patterns are changing again, and it is allll okay.
Hang in there loves.

thin-is-not-perfect:

fyoured:

Maybe you won’t, but the likelihood is that you will, at some point during your recovery, get Hungry. With a capital H. (Sure, people are different, but this was all-too-true for me, so I thought I’d share.)

This is so relevant… Especially the ‘meal plan’ thing… I didn’t know anyone else did that.

THIS IS SO TRUE. I was SO HUNGRY for SO LONG during recovery. LIKE SO HUNGRY. It was terrifying but I worked crazy insanely hard and I ate enough to satiate me. 

Only very recently (several years in) have I started to sometimes recognize the feeling of too-full and honor that as well. Now my eating is hugely variant (sometimes I need very significant amounts of food, sometimes I don’t. sometimes all I want is fast food, sometimes I want veggies and fruits). I am listening to my body and my eating patterns are changing again, and it is allll okay.

Hang in there loves.

(Source: fyoured, via recovering-surviving)

oh yes laura good idea get super crazy upset about some ‘old news’ and then b/p in front of your boyfriend to cope

yes good

Hey everyone, it’s NATIONAL EATING DISORDERS AWARENESS WEEK. I work at NEDA and am in recovery and would be honored if you would reblog this. NEDAwareness.org is full of helpful resources. 

Hey everyone, it’s NATIONAL EATING DISORDERS AWARENESS WEEK. I work at NEDA and am in recovery and would be honored if you would reblog this. NEDAwareness.org is full of helpful resources. 

(Source: mylifewithanorexia, via mutherqueer-deactivated20140717)

recoveryisbeautiful:

It just dawned on me that one day… I’m going to be saying “I had an eating disorder”… 

yes that’s right!! someday we will ALL be saying that and it is going to be awesome. stay strong and keep calm, my darlings, we’re doing this!

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fyoured:

ED: Hey, kid, you know what feels good?
Me: Uh, no.
ED: Losing weight.
Me: Hey, ED, you know what feels good?
ED: I’m listening…
Me: Being able to be honest to people who care about me
Me: And enjoying food
Me: And trusting people
Me: And being able to concentrate
Me: And having enough energy
Me: Do I need to continue?

I loved this so much that I grinned, and then laughed, and now I’m crying a bit. I’m so so so so so happy that I’m recovering.

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