June 2012
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Only just realized that after this term, I’m leaving outpatient treatment for my eating disorder. I’m sure I’ll do individual therapy again, but I don’t know that I’ll have a unified team (physician, group, and therapist) like this EVER again. And for at least the summer I will be therapylos.
Slightly scared but hoping it’s like taking off my training wheels?
May 2012
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Anonymous asked: how are you navigating the plagiarism issue while having someone else do the editing of your thesis for you/ directing you where to cut and paste? i've been avoiding asking for help (smaller than that, but still help) on a big project because i can't exactly cite my friend and it feels trashy to put a "by the way someone else did my edits" acknowledgement at the end but...
advisor just now (no legit)
paraphrased: don’t get too excited you might still have tons of editing to do.
um. there is one week left of my last ever term of college. ONE FUCKING WEEK. you had my draft two weeks ago and never got it back to me
um
excuse me
WHAT
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“And I thought, oh wait, maybe de Beauvoir is alphabetized by B — but...”
– OH MY GOD LAURA REALLY
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“I’m fifteen years old and I feel like it’s already too late to live....”
– Graveyard Girl, M83
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tw: eating disorders
[[MORE]]i hate and loathe this huge disgusting body of mine
every fucking inch my stupid huge feet and my freakishly long legs and my huge fat everywhere
i hate this thing that i have to live trapped inside of
fuck
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tanglewoodtree:
I just want to give up. I don’t think I can do this. It’s all crap. There’s so much left to do. I just want to sleep. EFFFFFFFFFFFFF.
UGH THESIS JUST DIE ALREADY WHY DON’T YOU
I HATE CITATIONS
I HATE THEMMMMM
AND I HATE HAVING TO PROVE SHIT THAT IS OBVIOUS AS FUCK: FUCK ACADEMIA
argh oh my god and I still have to finish the fucking conclusion
IN CONCLUSION MY POINT...
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o rly
microsoft word recognizes “SeaWorld”
but not “heteronormativity”
QUELLE SURPRISE
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Peter: So you're going to cut and paste that section into the Looking for Alaska analysis.
Me: (copy) (delete) Okay. Where?
Peter: Um.
[time passes]
Me: You're like, SOLID QUESTION!
Peter: SOLID QUESTION INDEED
We can't stop laughing FUCK THESIS ARGH
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I really want a "Wreck This Journal"
courageisgraceunderpressure:
like a lot
ME TOO I WANT THIS SO BADLY. Maybe I should get it (wink, wink) and have it as a summer project?
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we were in great spirits this morning (texting:)
Boyfriend: Ugh. What are you doing this morning?
Me: Uh regular things, class, etc. Feeling crummy. Bluh. Uh you?
Boyfriend: I did dishes. yup.
Me: Blah
Boyfriend: Butts
Me: Stupid blah things
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Anonymous asked: Posts like this fill me with hope and happiness. You're great. "more snacks I like and don’t care if they’re not “healthy” blah blah blah — the little microwaveable Annie’s mac&cheese things. OMIGOD so good. Used to be a “big meal” for me…um, today I’m having it as a post-contact class snack. YUM"
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containtheurgetorunaway-deactiv asked: you don't need to be skinnier!! you're absolutely perfect just the way you are <3
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:( want to must be skinnier
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WOW OH RIGHT
this is why I don’t usually have caffeine!
AND THIS IS BECAUSE I DON’T USUALLY HAVE CAFFEINE
who is going to stay up late thesising tonight?
THIS MOUSE
THIS MOUSE…RIGHT…HEEEEEEEEEEEERE
thesis cave
thesis cave is a place with diet cherry pepsi, cheese flavored popcorn, many many drafts of thesis, thesis-related books, my laptop, and fanmixes for Paper Towns and Looking for Alaska. oh and me. wet-hair-having me in sweatpants. yes.
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"In fact that's my new favorite word.": 10 things... →
i-am-ambivalent:
1. But you eat!
Of course they do. They have to or they would die, very quickly. It doesn’t matter if you saw your friend eating a chocolate bar two weeks ago, or they eat something at lunch every day: they can still have a serious problem. They might calorie count, purge, only eat ‘safe’…
Oh yes, all of this.
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Peter: Why did you say I am like an inchworm?
Me: You are cautious and wiggly.
fralusans-ana-marein asked: no need to thank me — thank /you/ for being awesome.
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THIS IS ME RIGHT NOW
cailleyissocoollike:
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
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I hate
eating unchecked over-defensiveness this day having to finish my thesis having to go to class MYSELF FOR BEING A LAZY STUPID USELESS IDIOT
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“Victory…should be NAKED”
– some alien on Doctor Who
and on that note I am making plans to dance naked post-thesis-handing in. not just dance…but dance naked
okay
back to the episode
um
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avocadoqueen:
if anyone in person ever tells me that I’m fat I can always pull the “I’M RECOVERING FROM AN EATING DISORDER YOU INSENSITIVE BITCH” card
woo small perks! off to eat dinner (that’s right bitches) and watch Doctor Who.
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Anonymous asked: Um, what a horribly vicious and pointless thing for your last anon to say. Sending you some anon love to even things out! You are lovely and charming and way stronger than anonymous haters!
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containtheurgetorunaway-deactiv asked: anons are vile. your lovely and beautiful, fuck tha hate !
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Anonymous asked: Kill yourself, you dumb cunt.
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PEOPLE.
This just went down (sigh)
Middle class white lady on a webforum discussing baby names: No ghetto names (sorry, Sha-nay-nay, Bon-qui-qui). Me (middle-class white lady): *cringes at term “ghetto names”* Another middle-class white lady:Would you prefer “names highly statistically likely to pertain to African Americans from poor, poorly-educated inner-city families”? Kind of...
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