I’ve finished a draft of the paper (still have to do formatting, citations, and a bit of editing) and am almost done making forty Earl Grey tea shortbread cookies.

I AM NOT A TOTAL FAILURE

Why is it that the programs that have what I want (social justice emphasis) are also the really fancy ones (Columbia, Boston College)

why can’t someone solve my life for me

why does a PhD take FOR FUCKING EVER despite my entering with an MA 

why are transfer credits so hard

why am I so bad at focusing on MY PAPER

why are schools so annoying about giving you info about their funding for doctoral students

why

Confession: I don’t want to apply to the phD program at my current university because then I will still be here when Pastor Jack retires, and it will break my heart.

today: up, le sigh. tea. research programs. GROUP RESPONSE. work on paper. breakfast. work on paper. when you need a break, do pilates. shower. WORK ON PAPER. lunch. start to bake (Earl Grey tea cookies, make 3 dozen for class tomorrow) and also…work on paper. (sigh.) class 4 - 6:30. home. make dinner (brown rice, peanut sauce, sauteed zucchini). work on paper more if needed? walk with David. bed.

today: up, le sigh. tea. research programs. GROUP RESPONSE. work on paper. breakfast. work on paper. when you need a break, do pilates. shower. WORK ON PAPER. lunch. start to bake (Earl Grey tea cookies, make 3 dozen for class tomorrow) and also…work on paper. (sigh.) class 4 - 6:30. home. make dinner (brown rice, peanut sauce, sauteed zucchini). work on paper more if needed? walk with David. bed.

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I frequently (at least once a day) fantasize about just about one month from today, when David and I will fly to South Dakota for our friend’s wedding. I will bring fun books to read. I will get to do things over that weekend including: going to a bar, eating in a restaurant, shopping, having a manicure, seeing cool sights/learning FOR FUN, BEING AT A WEDDING, singing, dancing, general frivolity

oh vacation why must you be 3 papers, 1 test, 1 presentation, and a bunch of other nonsense away

gahhhh

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Title Page
Abstract
Page One
Page Two
Page Three
Page Four
Page Five
Page Six
Page Seven
Page Eight
Reference page
Final formatting

Not freaking out. Have written the abstract and introduction. Have at least 14 good articles to use. I can write this paper. I can write this paper. I can write this paper.

And if I get a B in this class…big fucking deal. One B in a sea of A’s is NOT THAT BIG A DEAL, LAURA. REMEMBER WHEN YOU USED TO GET F’S? 

today: up around 8. tea & potato chips (ugh I suck). freshen up a tiny bit and then go running and life weights superfast. shower. read papers for career paper. lunch with David at home (big salad with chicken & cheese toast). head to campus and work on paper. class 4 - 5:15 (listen to other people’s projects), then table for my job at Slut Walk from…5:30 - 7ish. home. spaghetti carbonara & salad. go for a walk with David. reading before bed, and then BED.
p.s. if you have trouble concentrating on the career paper, WRITE THE REFLECTION FOR GROUP. it’s due tomorrow, you dummy.

today: up around 8. tea & potato chips (ugh I suck). freshen up a tiny bit and then go running and life weights superfast. shower. read papers for career paper. lunch with David at home (big salad with chicken & cheese toast). head to campus and work on paper. class 4 - 5:15 (listen to other people’s projects), then table for my job at Slut Walk from…5:30 - 7ish. home. spaghetti carbonara & salad. go for a walk with David. reading before bed, and then BED.

p.s. if you have trouble concentrating on the career paper, WRITE THE REFLECTION FOR GROUP. it’s due tomorrow, you dummy.

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I’ve really enjoyed the pagan parts of today’s holiday (sunrise ritual with David, egg/bunny themed little gifts) as well as the Christian parts (a tiny bit of Bible study we dropped in on, singing in church choir, hearing the sermon) and the social aspects (Easter luncheon with big group of friends, talked a lot with Sadie as well as Heidi and Emily and Matt [I always love talking to Matt and Sadie argh I wish I saw them more often and wasn’t so awkward argh], and talking to my lovely Grandma for half an hour) but I am also enjoying lying mostly naked on my bed watching Netflix and eating off-brand sour cream and onion potato chips.

Balance.

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foi-en-vous:

Happy easter on We Heart Ithttp://weheartit.com/entry/112269760/via/xwies

today: up late and rush to hilltop for pagan sunrise ceremony. back home for cinnamon rolls & easter-present finding. open gifts/candy from one another. spiff up while watching Heidi. next: church (choir!) and then quick home. heat mashed potatoes and go to…Heidi’s (Heidi is a person as opposed to what we were watching which is the German kids’ show…). Easter dinner (ham, potatoes, sparkling cider, etc.) with GFM folks. home: movies and candy. mac and cheese or leftovers if still hungry. bed.

foi-en-vous:

Happy easter on We Heart It
http://weheartit.com/entry/112269760/via/xwies

today: up late and rush to hilltop for pagan sunrise ceremony. back home for cinnamon rolls & easter-present finding. open gifts/candy from one another. spiff up while watching Heidi. next: church (choir!) and then quick home. heat mashed potatoes and go to…Heidi’s (Heidi is a person as opposed to what we were watching which is the German kids’ show…). Easter dinner (ham, potatoes, sparkling cider, etc.) with GFM folks. home: movies and candy. mac and cheese or leftovers if still hungry. bed.

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